5-12-2000. 22 Years Old.
Lately I’ve been paying close attention to my thoughts and they all seem to revolve around the notion I held myself back in areas to not make others feel left out. Now that my opportunities seem to have run dry and others are blossoming, they seem to be leaving me behind. I start to wonder why I limited myself based on an idea of friends feeling left out. It was as if their happiness, feelings of worth were more important than me improving my circumstances. But now that they are happy with their seized opportunities, I’m not so happy with where I am at. Everything I thought would happen didn’t, and everything I feared, seemed to. And now I look back and wonder why would anyone limit themselves for fear of their friends feeling left out?