4-5-00. The Start of Something New Journal. 22 years old. I have a difficult decision to make here. For the past 8 months I have worked in a day care trying to figure out what direction I want my life to be heading in, the field of psychology or something else. I quit school to figure this part out, got a job and now I’m stuck in the same position I was before I left school. It seems the job part didn’t help me anymore than the school part in the game of life but rather made life more difficult. Some of the thoughts I’m weighing are, the pay is horrible but the rewards are beneficial. I just keep thinking I’d be letting these kids down if I was to leave but at the same time I need to be thinking about my future, what I want out of life. I’m afraid working here at the day care has come to an end and tomorrow will be the day I have to inform my boss that these last 2 weeks will be the end of my employment. I can only hope I’m not letting these kids who I’ve worked with for the past 8 months down. Please God help me make the right decision here.