7-14-99.  The Other Way Journal.  22 Years Old. There is a part of me which leads me to believe this encounter will not manifest
into the relationship I envisioned.  The part of me I speak about is in the gut.  I really would like to love again and yet sometimes when I’m around her there is this feeling within me which says the feeling isn’t mutual.  What changed during this time?  We were getting along just perfect; the phone conversations, the eye contact, the playful encounters.  Did I do something wrong or say something in those moments that would have caused her to back off?  Maybe I didn’t tell her about all of my feelings for her and how she makes me feel?  Whatever it is, something doesn’t feel right and I’m afraid I lost another one.