7-5-99.  The Other Way Journal. 21 Years old.  Every time I am around her I experience that feeling in my stomach.  The words escape my lips when I look at her.  My heart increases its pace and thoughts race on the possibilities of dating her.  I’ve built her up to be the next girl and yet we hardly know each other.  She seems to be interested in me from our conversations and eye contact.  And yet she doesn’t ask about my disability.  I have been careful of my surroundings I put myself in so she doesn’t see the struggles.  But does she notice this?  The question still lingers, will she accept me for my struggles?  I’m not sure I’m ready to open myself up to that question and possible rejection just yet.