by John Graybill | Feb 11, 1997 | Journal
2-11-97 20 years old. Last night in my dream I dreamt that someone or something came to me and put their hands on my legs and said, “Get up!”. The entity had no face or at least one I could recognize. It just appeared and placed it’s hands on my...
by John Graybill | Feb 10, 1997 | Journal
2-10-97 20 years old. 3 years after the diagnosis. Two observations are noted when I walk and immediately after I walk. The first is an interesting feeling overtakes my body whenever I sit down after walking a distance of 3/4 of a mile or more. My legs,...
by John Graybill | Jan 31, 1997 | Journal
1-31-97 20 years old. I have been at IUP for 3 weeks now and I am still feeling lonely. No one seems to stay around up here when the weekend comes which leaves me by myself. I am not that social and so that adds to the loneliness. It is during these quiet times...
by John Graybill | Jan 26, 1997 | Journal
1-26-97. 20 years old. Today, as I look back on the past year of my life I am starting to notice my weakness. My back tends to get tense when I walk. I think it may be due to leaning back and sticking my belly forward when I walk. I notice that my hips swing...
by John Graybill | Jan 24, 1997 | Journal
1-24-97. 20 years old. It is Friday night and I am doing nothing but sitting in my dorm room. I do not know anything lately. My life is heading in some direction and I have no idea where it is going to take me. When I talk to older people who have had longer life...
by John Graybill | Mar 18, 1995 | Journal
3-18-1995, 17 years old. It has been four hours and now it is time to leave the hospital. As I sit in the back seat of my parent’s car with my mom and dad in the front seat, I cannot help but think about what has just happened. It is almost like a bad dream. ...
