by John Graybill | May 12, 2000 | Journal
5-12-2000. 22 Years Old. Lately I’ve been paying close attention to my thoughts and they all seem to revolve around the notion I held myself back in areas to not make others feel left out. Now that my opportunities seem to have run dry and others are...
by John Graybill | May 10, 2000 | Journal
5-10-2000. The Start of Something New Journal. 22 Years Old. Feelings of emptiness and loneliness seem to be plaguing my body more than ever. What am I doing with my life and how am I contributing to it? It seems like everyone around me is on their own trail of...
by John Graybill | Apr 27, 2000 | Journal
4-27-00. The Start of Something New Journal. 22 Years old. I had a talk with a friend of mine yesterday about past girlfriends and what they are doing. He asked me about one in particular, Amy, and if I still talk to her. I informed him of her latest doings and...
by John Graybill | Apr 23, 2000 | Journal
4-23-00. The Start of Something New Journal. 22 years old. What is my potential? If I’m not being utilized correctly then how can I find the answer to this question? Going to work for simply a pay check is not my definition of potential and yet this was how...
by John Graybill | Apr 5, 2000 | Journal
4-5-00. The Start of Something New Journal. 22 years old. I have a difficult decision to make here. For the past 8 months I have worked in a day care trying to figure out what direction I want my life to be heading in, the field of psychology or something else. I...
by John Graybill | Mar 7, 2000 | Journal
3-7-00. The start of Something New Journal. 22 years old. I feel as if my life is on a painful replay. I want to change. I feel the change within me. However, the change feels so far out of reach. The weird thing is I feel something is holding me back,...
by John Graybill | Mar 4, 2000 | Journal
3-4-07 Self Study Book #1. 29 years old. “As long as I continue to follow the reasoning of the past, the past will continue to follow.” This quote came to me today as I was walking up the stairs in the late afternoon. Poker night was last night and I...
by John Graybill | Feb 27, 2000 | Journal
2-27-00. The Start of Something New. 22 years old. Nothing seems to go the good way. I tend to always entertain the worst case scenario. I really believe that what you think about does come true and for me there is that doubt always lingering in the back of every...
by John Graybill | Feb 15, 2000 | Journal
2-15-00. The Start of Something New Journal. 22 Years old. If I was to die today and I had a chance to talk to my body, what would the conversation look like? I think it would go like this: Soul: Why did you care so much and so long about how others viewed you?...
by John Graybill | Dec 21, 1999 | Journal
12-21-99. The Start of Something New Journal. 22 Years Old. A girlfriend allowed for me to express my feelings with the knowing that she would understand them. And now that 3 years have gone by and I haven’t had a girlfriend, I cannot help but notice my...
